My Untold Feelings

Sudah begitu lama Hatiku selalu mendung Dan hidupku dipenuhi hujan Sudah begitu lama Sejak aku dapat memiliki minggu yang ceria Sejak aku mampu menjalani seminggu penuh tanpa air mata Sudah begitu lama Aku selalu menangis tiap dua hari sekali Bahkan ada kalanya aku menangis setiap hari Sudah begitu lama Hatiku dipenuhi dengan kebencian Karena terus menerus disakiti Mungkin, tanpa sadar, membenci menjadi cara hatiku untuk berlindung Agar ia tidak merasa terlalu kesakitan Agar aku tidak menangis lagi di hari itu Sudah begitu lama Aku lupa bagaimana rasanya bahagia Dan bagaimana rasanya menjalani hidup tanpa rasa sakit dan tersiksa setiap harinya Kini, aku bahagia

Saat aku menangis, dia mengulurkan tangannya padaku Saat aku tak pernah dipilih di masa lalu, dia selalu memilihku Saat aku selalu dibuat menangis di masa lalu, dia memastikan masa depanku tak pernah sendu Layaknya matahari yang muncul perlahan dari balik langit yang kelabu, begitulah caranya hadir di hidupku Mulai saat ini, aku akan selalu mencari cara agar kamu tahu bahwa kamu sangat berarti bagiku Karena kamu telah membuatku bahagia Dan membuatku kembali merasakan hidup yang sudah kulupa bagaimana rasanya Kali ini, aku tak mau kehilangan lagi Mari menua bersama Saling mengutamakan Saling menjaga perasaan Saling memahami Dan menjadi keluarga Mulai saat ini, kamu adalah keluargaku Yang akan selalu aku utamakan Dan aku buat bahagia

How amazing you are You bring the spring in my life Everyday feels like a beautiful spring The season that resembles you The season that always brings piece and joy to me   With you, my winter feels so warm My autumn feels so sunny My summer feels so cool like a spring breeze   And my spring, it's always being the season I love the most because of your presence You, who are sitting right beside me now With that angelic smile in your face Someone who brings color to my life Since meeting you, my life doesn't feel lonely anymore   You are my spring, the season when flowers bloom beautifully A perfect season to fall in love

Just like the way God loves His creation, even though I can't love you the same, I try to love you that way. The most beautiful and purest way of loving ever, an unconditional love. A love that doesn't need any return, a love that won't leave you in any condition, a love that will always accept you anytime you need a home to come back for, a love that will always be there for you even though it has been left by you, a love that will never forget you even though you have forgot it for a long time. Just like the way God loves His creation unconditionally, I want to love you that way, even though my love will never can be compared with God's love. Because God's love is unmatched. But I love you, I love you in any condition, I love you in every prayer I pray. I hope the time will take me to you, so rather than saying how much I love you, I will show you how much this love is. I won't say it, I will show it through my action, so you can feel it. All I need is time ...

There is something I want to learn. The way to make you fall for me. You, someone so far away accross the ocean and never knew about my existence.  I really want you to know me. Because at least if I can't have you, I want to spend the rest of my life as a good friend you can count on. Whenever you need a help, I will be there to help you. I will do anything for you.  So, shall I learn about how the way to make friends with you first? Ah no, isn't the most important is how the way to meet you first? You ain't someone I can easily meet by chance in the street. Even those who just can see your bluring self from the distance are categorized into lucky people.  So, what I have to do to meet you?  I am so shameless. How can I wish to be loved by you? Even being your friend is something may will never be true to me. That is why there is a said that we have to have a border for everything, include dreaming. Even can see you from afar is a luck that may will never happen in ...

I have to thank your parents Because of them, you can be here in this world Alive and can be loved by me Because of them, I get the chance to see the beauty I've never seen The beauty I can only see on you Thank you to your parents for bringing you into this world Because of them, I can see someone more beautiful than the world and everything in it Your existence is something I'm most grateful for Dear you, thank you for being alive You mean the world to me